Basic college class day: Compilers and Graphics for two classes. I then watched Final Destination (anyone want to fly to Paris?), and went swing dancing at the Bluemoon ballroom. I find the bluemoon to be a great place to relax. The atmosphere is calm, safe, and light-hearted, and just a great place to shake booty after a day of screen staring and book work. Of course, that means that I would of had to open a book......... Hah.
Funny how things irk people. For me, I have found out that when people cancel with no apparent solid reason, it ticks me off. Why? No idea. I would think that at this "advanced" day in age, I could control the mind to such a finite point that emotion only plays into the equation of thought if and when I choose. It is another corollary to why I feel fear. I am incredibly afraid of the dark, yet I am reasonable sure that the dark alone is not the reason. It is the uncertainty stemming from the lack of knowledge of the objects in motion around me... In non-chris speak, I am afraid of the unknown. But then I laugh, because uncertainty is constant, I will never know everything, and what a waste of a life to be afraid of something that cannot change.... I am working on building up mental defenses to the nuances of neuron firings that make me feel small and alone. hmm.
More Random thoughts:
Chance and Choice. such quirky little things that seems harmless enough until you really think about them. Setting aside the discussion of if chance was involved in the creation of the world; chance happens every moment of every day for every person in every world. In a book called Godplayers, they explored chance in that ever decision ever made spun off a new complete universe, which led to an infinitely growing infinite number of 'verses. In the book, certain people could actually jump between these alternate universes at their discretion. While I can't do that, it helped to hone in on the idea that each person's destiny is their own choice. Most of the worlds in Godplayers was vastly different from the next, some in utter chaos, others in relative peace. Since each of these worlds stemmed from the same earth, it shows that every person embodies the potential to change the course of this planet, for better or for worse. But chance alone will do nothing. Choice must be accepted and harnessed as a tool of molding chance. That is something I don't quite understand yet. Choice can solve just about darn near everything. There is are choices, good choices, that can irradicate AIDS, solve world hunger, and allow people to just be peaceful beings. It is within the power of this multi-partisan world, if we could just stop the racist, sexist, and all other types of hatred that seems to be the easy choice for so many people. . . Until then........
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